loveMELT Newsletter #021: Still Late
As promised last loveMELT, the poem correlating to the painting in progress, Late Bloomer
Late Bloomer
Late to start my period as a kid Never grew tits Had a fling in high school Missed the whole loveboat in college Late to go on a date with the same person more times than eight Late to learn how to see Late to learn how I want to be Late to learn it always boils down to nothing if I’m unable to create Late to make a salary but you can have it back Is it too late to say fuck it to go back to bartend? I’m told it’s too early for this corporate game to be driving me this insane… but God do I hate being the bait Anxiety riddles all over the place Shoots and ladders board gaming the system every two faces I’m getting lost in a headspace without the taste to articulate So I’m told to care less but that makes me careless which I can’t be One thing I could care less about is this stupid career and this supposed nest egg I’m bound to receive I’m not holding my breath for anyone I work for or for this government to give anything worth giving back to me I’ve spent my adult life learning to unlearn all the things I was expected to believe just to keep myself okay so now I’m late to the place where I could even think to procreate and it’s getting late for this body, the real nest, to give birth to a being So those days my period is late my mind contemplates If I did have a kid, would they think me a disgrace? Or would they feel the same kind of displaced my kind has been so good at making people feel up to date? Z is the last letter of the alphabet and this generation is called it Is it fate? Is it too late? Mom said I’d be a late bloomer but I never dreamt it would amount to this
I’ve added another layer to the painting, more to come
If you missed last newsletter, I talked about the inspiration and meaning of this painting in the works, Late Bloomer. To learn more about the history and contemporary happenings in Still Life painting, you can check out some of the interesting findings below:
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